color in a drop of rain

surgery this morning, everything seems to be going ok.

i can finally breath out of my nose. dr.Q said it was one of the worst he’s seen. score, now i know im not crazy when i say im sick. i really do mean it.

have a slight sore throat and a massive headache.

but supposivly the head ache is due to how he had to position me for surgery.  ouchy.

christine came by and brought me balloons and candy. Mmmm and Adam brought me some ice cream :)

any ways.

KIM and WILL’s wedding is tomorrow. so siked!

grandmas bday is sunday :) i sent her a card and she loved it.

work is going ok, still has its crazy moments.

megan is still living with us but doing alot of house sitting and stuff so shes gone alot. making that money. possibly moving out soon?

autumn is coming to visit, so very excited :)

sadie is getting so big, she still doesnt get along with the other guineas, they fight and hiss and bite. so sad. i wanted them all together.

vbs starts in july im excited :)

im going to be 22 soon. crazy! time really does fly.

we had to say good bye to Tracie, she left for Richmond cause she found a job there. defintily going to miss her. Her son has been really sick lately they had to remove a lymph node in his neck because he has been spiking a fever for over 2 weeks. — before all this happened though we all went out for dinner and dancing/drinks. only had a margarita and 2 shots. but did A OK. just tipsy nothing else. kellie and angela were drunk to the max lol. funny kids

deisy had surgery so shes going to be out for a month. shes had a few complications but hopefully will be doing better.

umm thats it for the moment. going to go do some online dress shoppin :)

I want to kiss you while I’m smiling.

promise of a life time, kutless

I have fallen, to my knees, as i sing a lullaby of pain.

I’m feeling broken in my melody, as I sing to help the tears go away.

lovelylittlehorror:

There’s a plane leaving for anywhere you want right now, and in an hour, and in a day, and in a year. You can get out whenever you want, it’s comforting I think. 

DO YOU SEE THE CIRCLES flying around with little ? marks…. flying saucers :P hehee

i love babies!

So many babies being born all around! It’s making me get baby fever :P

Brayden, Caleb, Breya, Kyla, Dravin, Jake, and Riley.

<3

"To love at all is to be vulnerable. Love anything and your heart will be wrung and possibly broken. If you want to make sure of keeping it intact you must give it to no one, not even an animal. Wrap it carefully round with hobbies and little luxuries; avoid all entanglements. Lock it up safe in the casket or coffin of your selfishness. But in that casket, safe, dark, motionless, airless, it will change. It will not be broken; it will become unbreakable, impenetrable, irredeemable. To love is to be vulnerable."

C.S. Lewis (via girlwithoutwings)

(Source: quote-book)

"Life will break you. Nobody can protect you from that, and living alone won’t either, for solitude will also break you with its yearning. You have to love. You have to feel. It is the reason you are here on earth. You are here to risk your heart. You are here to be swallowed up. And when it happens that you are broken, or betrayed, or left, or hurt, or death brushes near, let yourself sit by an apple tree and listen to the apples falling all around you in heaps, wasting their sweetness. Tell yourself you tasted as many as you could."

Louise Erdrich (The Painted Drum)

(Source: kari-shma, via quote-book)

month of hell. pure hell.

hopefully i’m out of the fire now…

major shopping spree today. i just want new clothes. I hate my old crap.

Im exhaustedddd. cant wait for the weekend already!

I know I need you
I need to love you
I love to see you, but its been so long
i long to feel you
i feel this need for you’
and i need to hear you
is that so wrong?
oh oh oh, oh oh oh, oh oh oh
now you pulled me near you
when we’re close i fear you
still im afraid to tell you
all that i’ve done
are you done forgiving?
or can you look pass my pretending?
Lord i’m so tired of defending
what i’ve become
what have i become?
oh oh, oh oh, oh oh. (repeat 4)
i hear you say “my love is over,
its underneath, its inside, its in between
the times you doubt me, when you can’t feel
the times that you’ve questioned ‘is this for real?’
the times you’ve broken, the times that you mend
the times you hate me and the times that you bend
well my love is over, its underneath
its inside, its in between,
these times you’re healing
and when your heart breaks
the times that you feel like you’ve fallen from grace
the times you’re hurting
the times that you heal
the times you go hungry and are tempted to steal
in times of confusion and chaos and pain
im there in your sorrow under the weight of your shame
im there through your heartache
im there in the storm
my love i will keep you by my power alone
i dont care where you’ve fallen, where you have been
i’ll never forsake you
my love never ends, it never ends
mmm, mmm
oh oh, oh oh, oh oh

"To live is the rarest thing in the world. Most people exist, that is all."

Oscar Wilde | bemysuperher0 (via quote-book)

(Source: quote-book)